I give up

Bleeding from the inside out
its f*cked up
what this is all about
just her
my eyes are red and swollen
from the hundreds of tears that I've cried
in a box
a razor blade I keep
I made two slits
I made them deep
the blood won't stop
and neither will these tears
left here all alone
with all these fears
it hurts so bad
especially those words
that I so clearly read
the ones that said she was there for you and I wasn't
the ones that told me I'm a bad friend
the words that didn't lie
and now this is the end
I'm still crying
blood drips from my wrist
as fast as these tears fall from my eyes
no one hears my cries
I lie down on the floor
I just don't want to live anymore
I'm dying
and my eyes close
there's so much blood
I feel so cold
I'm sorry I was a horrible friend
and so what if I die
one less sl*t
in this hell
shut my eyes tighter
and with my one last breath I say
I'm sorry I couldn't take this pain
I'm sorry to you all