Alone, Alive & Free

As the knife jabs in further and further,
I wonder what I did wrong.
I wonder what I did to deserve this fate.
And as god only knows what is my fate.
At this rate he tells me its going to be ok
He tells me there is nothing else I can say.
As the blood flows drop by drop,
Only god knows whats happening, times ticking.. Second by second. moment by moment.
Time stands still and the whole world stops.
The rain showers, lightning towers.
The silence is dead and the floors are red.
A lifeless body remains but my soul only the sky contains.
The soul is free and that soul is me.
I watch as I leave this place.
All because pain was the case.
The pain now is stopped.
I feel nothing, hear nothing.
It's scary at first.
I finally see that my life is not a curse
I was put on this Earth to live and die. To love and hate, to be punished and to learn, to feel pain and my friends I gain, to help others and to see the happiness in life.
I felt all this before but now its all a slurr.
I loved and was loved I was broken and in pain.
Now everyone of the people I loved has to go through what I went through, losing someone they loved.
Knowing they will never see me again, ever hear my voice again, but they have to go through this, not me anymore.
I lost too much and too many I couldn't take it anymore.
So with everyone I loved I leave my burdens, my remorse, my feels and my love. All in the hearts of many.
And there lying on a forever stained floor is a lifeless body where noone remains but my soul, only the sky contains. Where I will Forever be just me, Alone, Alive & Free