Against your own advice

Dear Amy,
I'll Love you Forever and Always
Poppet,
I promise to do the same.

This is my heart and soul,me; laid out in white and black,
with open wounded wrists and a stab wound in the back.
Metaphorically speaking, your just another fish the sea,
even tho your gone now, theres always another one for me.
So, i'll lay it out, so you can plainly see my pain,
that ive lost you now forever but I'm glad i can't see you again.
See a promise, is a promise is that not what you always say,
Now i know for a fact they get broken every single day.

I met you at fourteen; i was a addict and a wh##e,
you lifted me on your wings, and showed me so much more.
[and, I cried for days when you left.]

you were the stone that i needed to help with my life,
you give me love and caring, for a trade with my knife.
[i didn't think you'd stick it between my shoulder blades.]

i found you one night spread out on the bathroom floor,
blood pools everywhere, on the mirror; 'i can't do it no more.'
[...& we never seen it coming at all]

I cried for days when you left me in this cold hard life,
[i thank God everyday, that i hadn't already become your wife]
See you always said, it was just an easy way out of this place,
i wish i had of known that you had lies all over your face.
i'm glad that your gone, because you promised to be there;
you broke it. and i'm sorry that i've just stopped trying to care.

[hey baby, your a daddy now]
She looks just like you ; hair,smile and beautiful blue eyes,
don't worry. i'll always tell her, her daddy was good at lies,
and he left your mummy and you all alone to our own device,
and then he done something stupid against his own advice.

[and she'll look just like you when you got upset]