She doesnt know

We went to grade twelve together
she asked my hand in friendship
she was a cutter
i was a smoker
when she saw me put my keys down
shed take them, id fight her to get them back
i always won, it was my addiction that always won
she d then block my way
when i try-ed getting outside to light it
id scream her name
and shed move out of my way
when she knew id finally light it
shed run outside
we both know my fear is
her to see me smoke
i know she deeply cares about me
she knows i deeply care about her
i then got teachers to gaguardhe door
i then started to lie when i was asked
where im going
this isn't our friendship though
this is our addictions fighting each other_trying to smoke, trying to cut
but letting each other know
how deeply we feel
you see we laugh enendless_we dance like retards
we play hangman and pass notes in class
we text when were apart at school
i talked to her just a while ago
she said she was good, she was well
i know her, i know my friend
i know she wowouldn'treak our promise
every cicigarette light
she can cut her self two times
for every cut she makes
i can have one cicigarette we pinky promised, we girl guided promise
we hugged on it and we smiled on it
were away from each other_and i hope, i just hope
that promise doesn't break
cause if we both do our things
we will fight each other_trying to save one from death
and im afraid
if i dont know what shes doing
and she doesnt know what im doing
we will wined up strangers at the end