So theres this person

This person i know likes me
I consider us "just friends"
He always tells me how much he cares
He calls me late at night to tell me how much he loves me
We were really close before
My past tore us apart
Im not scared to be close to him
Memories of past has a way of coming inbetween us
Unlike everyone else im with
I can be myself
He exceps me for who i am
When im crying he holds me
But then y wont i give this a chance?
I hurt him when he knew i was with someone else
He beg me to stop
I wouldnt listen
I could see i was hurting him
I didnt do any thing about it
He knows i cut
He trys to take my pain away
When i see him nothing else seems to matter
Late at night we cuddle and watch tv
But nothing happins
It comes really close
Then i start to pull away
Bad memories of my dad and his friend
Threatin me
Thats y i pulled so far away
I tell him its not like before
Hes always there
Im not sure whats holding me back
I love him so much
When i get close to someone i loose them
I just dont want to loose him
I can tell him anything
We sometimes drink and have funn
But that doesnt count
HE always tells me that hes not happy if im not
We play games and just hang out
My friends except him
His friends except me
Im just not sure what to do
From someone that i care so much about
My past reminds me everyday
And im scared if i will loose him
Or he will hurt me
Like everyone else did :(