Unshed Tears

So this isn't really done yet, i'm kind of still working around with it, but this is what i have so far:

Unshed tears fill my head, my heart
searching for release
but I hold them back
and fight and hope
that one day you'll come back to me
and this pressure behind my eyes
my heart, my soul
will simply vanish
and the desire to cry my heart out
will dissolve in your loving embrace
the warmth of you touch
and the gentleness in your eyes
as you stare deep into mine
the window to my soul
the journey to my heart

But these unshed tears remain
filling up my heart
and every inch of my aching body
with pain and sorrow
tears made of disappointment
and all the broken promises
a constant reminder of the pain you caused
but also a reminder
of my undying love for you

I fight with all my might
to not break down and cry
to hold back these escaping tears
because i know
that once they escape
they will not stop
an accumulation
of all the pain from before

And now a wall if forming
around the broken pieces of my heart
made from past mistakes
to keep the pain from penetrating my soul
but it seems there's a flaw
a tiny crevice, created by love
every time you come near
exposing my heart and making it vulnerable
to be played with and manipulated
by all your games

You spend all your time
slowly breaking the wall down
exposing my heart to you
so you can break it again
time after time
I allow myself to be vulnerable
to you, to your lies
to you manipulative ways
only for it to result in pain
in empty promises and pain-filled lies
disappointments and broken hearts