Life isn't always a bed of roses

From such a young age i knew what he was doing to me, something that i didn't fully understand at the time, I remember all those times you climbed into my bed in the middle of the night, Something that will haunt me for the rest of my life, Something that has changed me n my life forever, It has changed me as a person, I like this person, Because i have lived this way for so long, Some people think you can just move on with your life, It's not as easy as that, I remember all those times you fondled with me, but it grew into much more than that, It grew into something that people don't know about, You hurt me for 8 long years, It feels like my childhood has been taken away from, Something that didn't even matter to you, You took so much away from me n it Never going to come back, You ruined my life, I blame myself for what you did to me, I deserve to die.