Drowning

Everything builds inside of me,
Ready to explode,
Needing to let all my frustration out,
Blocking you out you drag me in again,
Saying cuts won't heal anything,
Everything that's happened should stop you,
Everything will just stain deeper,
Fists through walls just damages,
What is the point,
You try to understand my pain,
Take away my tears,
How can i when there's so much hate,
So much holding me back,
Stopping me from doing things,
I should have the right to do,
The world's against me,
This month needs to be banished,
Nothing but nightmares,
Flashbacks from all the crap in my life,
From being raped as a kid,
To the noise of death,
That caused such silence,
It's like here i go again,
Here i go drowning deeper.