Alone

It feels like I'm drowning
I don't think I'm crying
On the outside I'm smiling
But on the inside I'm dying
The pain it grows
And breaks my heart
It tears my life apart
I hold it in
Can't let it show
If I do they will know
So here I lay
All alone
That first tear falls
And now it starts
The flashes of light
And your face in my mind
Your laying still
I scream at you
Daddy wake up
Don't do this to me
Your too far gone
Theres nothing to do
But set here and lie
I take the mask
And wear it tight
As your grave comes into sight
The tears they fall
My heart it stops
My eyes are closed
I hear a voice
It says to me
Son I love you
You'll be ok
I turn around to see you there
Your smiling from ear to ear
But then I start to shake
My eyes shoot open
And you are gone
Once again I'm all alone