Why?

I feel the same i don't know why
when said these words i simply sigh
every day i want to cry
i run from the pain i can't hide

I don't know what to do
or why i feel this way
the words are easy wright
but very hard to say

I changed my ways I'm doing good
I'm going through school like i should
i do things now not a bump on a log
but i walk slowly like I'm in a fog

you see me happy you see me smile
but i have not been truly happy for quit a wile
the smile the laughter it's all fake
the pain in side makes me shake

Why good do i feel this way
i try to do any thing you say
when will the pain fade away?

when will it leave i all ways cry
when will it leave the day i die

no where for me to hide
no reason for me to cry
just live with the pain till the day i die

the reason i smile
the reason laugh
i don't want others to suffer
on my behalf

i still smile through the days
I'll still laugh as my way
but know that it's all fake on the inside i still shake

i will always cry
but those feeling
i will always hid