Disarray

I feel bad, I know I hurt you
Repeat those words as I cross out the hearts I drew

I love you will never be heard the same
As I throw away all our memories and the pictures go up in flames

You admitted you were immature and all of the above
But I don't want your pity apology because it was all you could think of

You know it was all your fault and you came to your senses
But inside I'm still building around my heart with those famous fences

Why does it always have to come down to those last words that kill
Can we still be friends? but you know you never will

I don't want you to crash and burn
But I do want you to know that there are so many lessons you need to learn

Maybe we're just so inexperienced we're falling away
Or maybe I knew that you would once again throw my life into disarray

I forgive you but there's still that voice holding me back
I'll walk away before you notice my voice crack

I should've held you longer and kissed you more
But its too late for that I'll implore

I constantly dream of us while I'm still awake
Wondering if I'm going crazy or if we were just a mistake

Don't forget about us as my heart begins to sever
Keep me in your thoughts boy, forever and ever