A few words change everything.

I have not been in peace
Ever since
We had this conversation
Where you plainly stated a change in direction
Seems like this guy is getting to you
I knew this day would come when you
Would lose faith and desire
I knew you would one day tire
Of being so far away
All I can do is hope he can't steal you away
I can't get over the fact that you said "It could happen"
I guess I'm the only one to be blamed
For I'm the one who asked to be in an open relationship
This feels like a bad acid trip
Why does it have to be so complicated
Why is it that I'm seperated
From the girl I love by thousands of miles
Is this yet another file
In my lifelong series of disapointments
Another example in what seems to be a constant
Trend in my life of regrets
Nothing I can do to upset
This sinister fatality
Just seems to be my destiny
To come to love and lose the ones I hold dear
This has got to stop for there's a limit I fear
To the pain I can take
From having another fake
Dream I had for a happy future
Losing you is just another torture
I'm gonna have to bear in my upsetting existence
When will I get the chance
Of finally
Being happy
I guess I should have seen this coming
What the f-uc-k was I expecting
Distance has always been a b-it-ch
It has taken more than one couple down the ditch
You were so different from other girls I met before
This is why this is so sore
For I felt you could be the one I've been looking for, all this time
You're perfect for me, yes just sublime
I care for you so much it hurts to be away
If only I could have it my way
You'd be lying here next to me
Looking into my eyes ever so softly
Your gaze and smile making me weak at the knees
You'd make me fall in love with you with so much ease
It'd almost be unfair
But luckily I know you also care
Oh man I wish for one day my dream to come true
But in the meantime there's nothing I can do
You'll eventually start seeing someone
And I fear the pain will gun me down
You're my baby
You should be here with me
I hate the situation we're in
I don't wanna be seeing
Somebody else
Cuz it doesn't make sense
I'd be wishing she was you
I'd feel like I'm betraying you
An open relationship...
Out seeking companionship
But what I really want is you
I'd give anything to be with my boo
I'm gonna have to find a solution to all this
I'll make this work I promise
Even if it means goodbye
To my beloved NY?