UUUGG! taylor beat me. >.<

He is turned away,
Totally ignoring me.
I keep my mouth shut,
Pretend I don't see.

^^ god. that's so disgustingly relatable. jake does that. turns around, talks to somebody else...and i just have to pretend i don't notice.

What's wrong with me?
That I don't understand.
Anywhere near him,
Is where my eyes are banned.

^^ There is NOTHING wrong with you kayla. i know that. you're wonderful and beautiful ((flaws and all)) and sweet and just great. so don't let an idiot ever make you feel otherwise. if he can't see it, he's a waste of time.

I bite back all of the tears,
Force a pretty little smile.
Pretending he isn't hurting me,
Is gonna bother me for awhile.

^^ I remember one time, takling to jake in my front yard about some gorgeous girl and smiling and saying good for him, then saying i needed gum and walking in thehouse so i could control the tears.....great, relatable stanza, loves.

I stare at him all through class,
In hopes he'll actually look back.
I wish I had the courage to ask,
What all I seem to lack.

^^ being afraid of rejection is so hard, honey, but you are stronger than you think.

He never cared for me,
I finally understand that now.
He tricked me into thinking he did,
I keep asking myself,"How?"

^^ He cares. he just is a silly boy who doesn't know how to show it...

I just love him so much,
I fell in way too deep.
At first I thought I'd be smiling,
Now all I can do is weep.

^^ it's hard when we give away our hearts and don't get a heart in return. it leaves us with an empty feeling and all we can do is cry...

I guess he chose what he wants,
And what he wants isn't me.
After all this time I finally realized,
We really weren't meant to be.

^^ *hugs you super tight* honey.....if he doesn't want yout then he's missing otu. i know i'll say this a thousand times, but it's true. i love you soooooooo much. and i know how it feels to feel unwanted, i really truly do. so i'm sorry sweetie. but you're amazing, whether he acknowledges thsi or not.

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