I must speak the truth

So afraid to try to quit again,
Because deep sown,
I know I always give in.
Suffocating under the pressure of my friends believing last time was my,
Last time
Yes I want to quit
But what if I let them down?
They say they love me no matter what
But through this blade
Will I break their trust?
What will they say if once again allow these little red slits to invade my wrists?
Should I even try?
Or just tell them I can't do this
Should I break their spirits before they get too high
Or love them enough to try?
I can't deny that Deep down I know I'll fail,
So I must now speak the truth:
I can't quit and never will