I never knew how it felt to have your heart broken.
It hurts but not as bad as words left unspoken.
Ben told by friends to live my life with no regrets.
That's kind hard for a person who never forgets.
I can still remember the first day I met you.
We didn't really talk, I guess we both didn't know what to say or do.
Images of our first kiss always come to mind.
You helped me set aside my depression and leave all my false hopes behind.
I understand what I did was wrong.
I just didn't want to be here and I felt like I didn't belong.
Accepting that I needed your help was hard for me to admit.
If I had set aside my pride I would have asked for it.
No one really comprehends the pain a person goes through.
If only I had opened up to you, if only I had been true.
Holding in all of my feelings wasn't a good choice.
I should have listened to my pleading inner voice.
I didn't try to commit suicide for any form of attention.
I just wanted all the pressure to go away as well as the tension.
When you broke up with me I felt betrayed, like you ripped out my heart.
It felt like my world had been torn apart.
I was told "everything is going to be alright" but I know it's not going to be alright.
As the day goes by it gets harder and I just want it to be night.
The hardest thing is that I can't tell you how much I really do care.
It's hard to believe that you're no longer going to be there.
Trusting people isn't an easy thing for me.
But my emotions aren't hard to ignore, their easy to see.
I shouldn't have pulled myself away or pushed you away.
I think about the day where were happy again but I know it's not going to be that way.
I should have thought about the consequences of my actions.
After that day I'm starting to think clearly especially after your harsh reaction.
A person never really knows that they have a good thing until they've lost them
I know I messed up what we had so I am the one to condemn.¦..
