From here on in I shoot without a script, see if anything comes of it instead of my old shit...
Entangled in one another's arms.
The girl I know starts to fade as the better me appears.
Our hands are clasped tightly, as if we were holding on for our lives.
The waxing moon lights angelic eyes.
Gazes meet.
My body is flooded with heavenly peace and comfort.
Suddenly all my pain dissipates.
My world is tinted.
I see with lover's eyes.
May 18th
Eight pm Eastern Daylight Time.
I can't believe a year went by so fast....
I can't believe I'm still here.
I can't believe this is real.
I can't believe I lost you.
....I can't believe I lost you....
I can't believe my nightmares came true.
I can't believe it happened.
I can't believe I lost you.
I can't believe I lost you...
I can't believe I really lost you...
I never would have imagined that I can only see my very best of friends in my dreams.
No one would have thought that I still dream about you every night.
Sometimes I see you in trouble.
Sometimes I see you upset.
Sometimes I see you happy.
Sometimes you care.
Sometimes you don't.
Sometimes you loathe me.
Sometimes you don't want to talk.
Every time, every night I see you no matter what.
You're always somewhere in my dreams.
You're always somewhere in my mind.
I Love you, Lovely.
I wish I could write more, but I just can't.
I would have done this yesterday, but I had to keep my mind as far away as possible so I wouldn't give in to the razor that begs me to punish myself for what I've done to you. I know, though, that it hurts you when I give in, so I stay strong. My wrists thank you.
