Blame me

I sit here and smile
And act like I am okay
No one will know what I am going through
You may not see it now
You may never see it
But I want you to know
That you always meant
Something to me
I know that I will never
Get the courage to tell you
And for that it is my fault
But know that we could have been something
Truly special
If you'd only given me a chance
You would have seen how much
I loved you
And how happy we could have truly been
But this is all just
A waste of my pen
For you will never read this
And all my feelings will go unsaid
I know that I shouldn't blame myself
But I find that I do
For why would you leave me
For someone else
If there was nothing wrong with me
But now as I sit here and read this
I know what I must do
I will rip this to shreds
And keep this all to myself
For I want you to be happy
And if you are happy with her
Then I will suffer this pain
Hold my head high
Blink away the tears
And finally say goodbye