I smile so i dont cry
I make up a million lies
When i want to talk somehow i cant
Im in my own world
This world is all i have left
Its were my past wont ever be forgetting
I wont leave him out of my life totally
Thats just what love does
She Shakes her head and asks me why
For what i did i have no good reason
Im just so broking up inside
Its comieng out in all the wrong ways
She starts to cry and says to me please stop
I wish it was that simple
I wish i had the answers
Or even a time mechine so i could fix everything i did
For now i am much to weak
My love for him is killing me to peices
Everytime i try to start over and be happy
Memories of his face, his hands haunts me
Its funny i cant forget the parts i want to
Well not totally
I dont think anyone knows what im going through
It is so so hard
When all i want is some closer
Its just what i need
I wish she could understand that
I used to be the girl
That always did what she believed
If i wanted something i would go after it
I would give up intell i got what i wanted
Well now I know what i ahve to do
Sad to say i just cant
I need to tell him im sorry that i love him
I left so many things unspoking
My whole life i fought to stay alive
I got so hurt everyday
Now im giving up fight
I just want to die
My past keeps haunting me
Its like the sharpest knife
Im not just bleeding from cuts i make
My hearts bleeding were no one can see
Im sorry daddy im just to weak
Let me go
And relize i cant fight this alone any longer
Please dont cry my daddy
Im dieing cuz i love u and i just cant understand what i did
Tell my mom not to be angry its her fault to
GIve my sister a big hug
Alll she ever wanted was you to
Just be there for them its to late for me
I never asked for any of this
I was just so messed up
Im so sorry for whatever i did
As i sit here
Im drinking
Im cutting
Daddy i want to be just like you
I dont want to stop
I just want you to approve
Daddy I cant fight this alone
Daddy please help me!!!!
Were ever you may be
Ill be here waiting
