Wannabe ((too weak and/or strong))

Nothing left with which to heal
all her fairy dust is gone
a wannabe scarlet artist,
all her pictures have been drawn

Too weak to be a good girl,
too strong to be considered weak
trapped in an inbetween,
there's nothing new there, so to speak

Eleven thirty and she knows,
knows that there's three more hours til she sleeps
a sudden hunger and aloneness...
it leaves her wishing to paint something deep

Too bad there are too many promises
to too many people who have let her down
why is it ok for them to lie to her?
but she has to be perfect, can't fall to the ground

Remembers it's always her fault,
that she was right, she doesn't deserve sweet dreams
too warm in the room with purple walls
how claustrophobic her night sky seems