I dont want to hate you :(

Why shoulD I live
I don't want to hate you but you make it impossible
why should I deserve to breathe
you are always telling me i'm your worst mistake
everything I do is a deception to you
and everytime you look at me u make me want to disappear

I don't want to hate you, but you make it impossible
I dont want you to hurt me but it seems like you don't care
you say you know me better, but the only thing you know
is a stupid idea that you have of me
you don't know me, stop pretending
you're a fake, please go away.

I need to run away from you..
you make sick.. you make me cry
you make my life a hell
I try to think I don't care
but deeply inside I'm such a mess
i can't keep living like this
I don't want to hate you but u make it impossible.

I have to get out of this hell
I can't stand it anymore
if i'm your worst mistake then I should go
I don't want to be an obstacle anymore
your words are like daggers stabbing my heart
and the meaning of those words is the poison you give to me
Every single day
but I'm not going to cry again
and your words are not going to hurt me again
Because I have made my decision
and you're no longer a part of my heart
you're dead to me
sorry.. i try not to hate you.. and u make it impossible