The whos whats wheres whens whys and hows of sadness

Who?

No one...thats who....you promised me that you'll be there and when i look around for you no one is there....so who's who? does it matter who? cause everyone who said that they'll be there is dead...or not with me...so who are you? it doesn't matter cause no one us here....I'm alone....

What?

Nothing...thats what....nothing is what i am, nothing is what i have, and nothing is all i would ever be....what is my point of living? what is my purpose? What are you doing to me? What is this feeling I'm feeling? pain....loneliness....sadness...is that what?

where?

in my house...in my room....inside the four walls that separate me from the world...in my dark hell....in my alone place....in my happy place that doesn't exist...in a place i wish could be true....in my soul...in my body...in my mind

when?
In the night...when i feel the most alone....in the day...as i stare at the sky....when my face suddenly goes blank....when i go off into my corner.....when i build up my walls....when i block off everyone again....when the frown reaches my face....when the darkness grabs me and pulls me deeper.....when i lose the fight...when nothing seems alright....when the chaos in my heart expands...when the shadows consume me....

why?

why do i do the things i do? why do i continue to live? why do i continue to go on another day to keep on living another day of being miserable? why am i so sad? why do i do these things i do? why does this always happen to me?!?!?!? why me? why? why? why?

How?

How am i here? how was i created? How do i continue to defy death? how come I'm not dead? how come life isn't fair...?
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