You open the door, with your eyes down and blank face,
hoping I'll come in and say I'm sorry.
I'm hoping you just shut that door in my face,
cause what i did, was not me. I became a fool.
I let my broken side come out, when I've tried so much in the past to keep it hidden.
I have mastered this and i have learn't I'll never be free to express how i really feel, because its a feeling that settles deep in me.
How can i be this other me, when I'm falling apart,
and its starting to show, tell me I'd like to know.
Can't you see I'm cold inside?
Tell me why, its me.
Tell me why, i have to walk this path every single god damn of my life.
How do you know if you are really depressed, self-absorbed or just plain lonely?
I keep telling myself, I'll make this day different, I'll smile more, I'll laugh, I'll make jokes, sing and be alive.
But this higher feeling, is tearing me down, stomping on me, overtaking all my happiness.
One day, my light will be faded out, I'll be a girl that is beyond hurt & I'm scared of that every day.
