Changing

I know that i am changing
And i don;t seem to care.
I know that i am changing
And that im barely there.

Sometimes i want to disappear
And leave this world for good
I know that that's not fair on you
But sometimes i wish i could.

I've tried the pills, i've tried the knife
i've tried so many things
But though i try and try again
I just can't seem to win

Hello? Hello? I'm calling you
But you don't seem to hear
Maybe im not loud enough
Maybe you just don't care

No one understands me
Or the way i feel
I'm just an outsider in this world
I don't think im even real

You say, "Talk, i'll listen"
But you don't even try
You just can't seem to comprehend
Why i always want to die

You see life as a gift
I see it as a curse
You try talking to the teachers
But they make it even worse.

They say they really want to help
They say they really care
But i know they're always lying
Because i'm not really there

Because i'm fading, fading fast
And soon i wont feel pain
Because im changing, changing fast
Just falling down like rain

Just like rain, upon the street
I cannot be stopped
I was just to far to help
And just like rain, i dropped