Shaken Faith

Oh, Lord, I cried
Why have you turned away from me?
I am in pain
Where are you?

And God answered,
'I am here,
'As I have always been,
'It is you who have turned away.'

But I looked in the direction
Where Faith had always been
And it was gone
Tossed and flown in my great upheaval

Where are You? I cried
I can not see You
Why have You changed?
So that I can not find You?

And the Lord answered,
'It is not I who has changed,
'But yourself.
'Take another look, beloved child.'

So I looked within a special mirror
And saw the truth of it
My heart and soul were different
Turned inside out by the changes I'd been through

My life that was
Could never be again
The path before me
Was ragged and uncertain

Always before the way was clear
Now an uncertain murk coated it
Yet I could not stand idle
This new path was mine alone to walk

Where do I go, Lord?
'Only you can decide.'
What do I do?
'What you think is best.'

Where are You?
'I am always here.'
I can not see You
You will, my child, you will.'

And in the end
I did see with my new eyes
As I walked the new path
Into my new reality

With time, I knew the truth.
That God was always there
It was only my circumstances
And my vision that had changed