Fighting this addiction

Tossing and turning
Restricted to the bed
Tell myself don't get up
Don't, or you know you'll cut

Tossing and turning
My mind whispering
Why didn't you save him!

Tossing and turning,
All I can say is
God, I want to cut

Tossing and turning
Restricted to the bed
Tears streaming down
This guilt won't leave
And This pain I can't ease

Tossing and turning
Till the urge slowly leaves
Still so tempted,
But stronger than before,
For I've fought the urge
I'm fighting this addiction
And
I'm winning!!