Bitterness Kiss

*not my best, but today was kinda rough and i wanted to write.

bitter words and harsh thorns
so casually thrown into the mix
emotions bubble and spill over
tears begin to flow thickly
throat feels choked; chest tight
trying to hold back the flood
you look at me no sympathy
don't cry; don't make a scene
maybe it's not fair of me
but i feel torn to pieces
like my heart is being ripped
out through my constricted throat
you say it could've been avoided
you told me to walk away
i know love, i know what you said
but when i love you so
walking away is the right thing
but my feet are unable to move
invisible hands push me along
stay with him; don't let go
after you're gone i break
walls crack and tears fall even more
the mask i was holding shatters
the girl wants to collapse
but then i think over what we said
the thorns and flames exchanged
along with icy looks
and realize that i'm upset over nothing
i saw it coming, the inevitable storm
and walked right into it expecting sun
the girl stands again; tears dry
the calm after the storm
i feel stronger now, though i'm no different
i know i'll do it again; some fools hope
that it will be different next time
oh love, why do we do this
then i see you again; your eyes sad
we both are sorry we both are hurt
tears threaten again; hugs exchange
a bitter kiss, and we'll start all over again.