Is it worth all of the pain? living life being told that your not good enough and that your a s**t? sometimes i wish that i could just end my life and put a gun to my head n cock it but i always told my self that i wouldn't do it but now that my life isn't getting any better I'm just thinking that i am just going to do it. It doesn't seem like anyone would care.. people barley notice me i am home and people act like they don't even know I'm there i try to stay invisible and finally i think that it is going to work because i am really going to be invisible. sometimes it gets into my head that maybe i was really a mistake but i also think that i shouldn't be here. i feel like god doesn't want me to be happy but i don't understand why i never did anything wrong. every person that i try to get close to crushes me and leaves me like i was never there....how can people go on with their life's knowing that they hurt someone but i think that in the end its all just going to end for me my name will disappear my life records..... i never existed...
