If only you knew

I said these jokes aren't funny
and you just wouldn't listen
but the water falls on my head
makes my blood soaked arms glisten

these words, they hurt
and kill me so
the pain is hard to hide
but ill keep up my chin
'till I'm in bed
all night long i cried

i tried to make you stop
but you kept on going through
my scars are your fault
if only you to knew

if you knew you were the reason
i ran away that night
that you were the reason
i lost my life's fight

it was you who made me cut
and drip my body dry
and you who made me slit
until i was sure to die