These thoughts

So many thoughts that run through my head,
so many of them got me wishing i was dead
you came to me so fast,
but your gone and in the past
I loved you so much it kills to live,
so many days i wish it was you to have lived
when i think about those day we were together,
our love was strong and to be held on forever
was it me that made you die,
thoughs thoughts of suicide
oh how i wish you were by my side
for the fear of my fathers blows maybe harder,
i maybe able to see you sooner
please some back to me,
for without you i have nothing
all i have are these thoughts of death
and you holding me til i take my last breath
please come back to me as these words i am screaming
i want to be with you unstead of dreaming