Wheres my Family?

Ur family is sup post to care
but mines don't
my family is really rare

i don't have a mom
she wont be there at my prom
its seems like shes in Vietnam
but shes just gone

my mom left me wen i was 2
friends tell me to ask my mom and i reply who?
i live with my dad
something i wish i never had

my dad hes cruel and mean
i could refer him to a selfish queen
u just don't understand
my dad, he was never there to hold my hand

i think back,back not to long ago
wen i used to tie my hair in a bow
i was in in 4th grade
my hair in a braid
i told a girl i hated my dad
i told her how he was so bad
i told her that i wish he was dead

then one day in 7th grade i was talking bout him,my dad
i was scared bout going home and i was really sad
and this girl goes don't u hate Ur dad
she remembered from 4th grade-wow-how sad?
how old was i like 7 or 8
at 8 my dad-someone i hate?
i sit there in shock

she tells me how in 4th grade i told her that i did
but like i seriously i don't even remember this kid
i was like wow i hated him since 4th grade
and then i remember all those times i had prayed

but now i know that my dad wont ever leave
u better believe
hes 42 and still alive
how can he survive?
he drinks and smokes
and tells mean jokes
but god wants him to live and i don't understand
he doest deserve to live on this land

car accidents from drinking drunk
little a$$ punk
i just wanna see him choking
or what about a heart attack from smoking
or just him dying from being old
well behold

cause I'll take my life for my dad
the ones who's mean and bad
always making me sad
and always a mad dad

so its goodbye
so next time i talk to u-don't ask why?
it was him or me
and to set me free
i pick me

~i'm 13 and it will mean a lot if u comment this poem!~