Cant Bring You Back

*This poem i wrote for a friend of mine who recently committed suicide...I love u ..R.I.P*

I woke up that morning
i was happy and in love
nothing could bring me down
i thanked god above

Then the phone rang
and woke me from this dream
as soon as i heard those words
i had to hold back my scream

I hung up the phone
i refused to believe
but the walls were closing in
and it was getting hard to breathe

I felt the tears
begin to flow
and my heart was breaking
this i know

You were dead
and nothing could i do
to bring you back
i still miss you

I still lay awake
and stare at the walls
wishing so hard
you had never left at all

Slit your wrists in bed
then found the next day
this wasn't meant for you
you shouldn't have died this way

Every single day
i feel so much pain
will it ever go away
or will it forever remain?

I don't know why
this was your choice
i just wanna scream
and raise my voice

I want the world to know
how i much i love you
and how much i miss you
and everything u do

My friends don't understand
why sometimes i cry
i never told them
about the day u died

And now I'm all alone
i never got to say
i secretly had a crush on you
i now pray every day

I never had the chance
to tell u that i cared
always thinking we had time
always thinking you'd be there

All those nights we spent
staying up all night
talking for hours
until morning light

All the secrets that i told you
all the things we shared
still always thinking
you'd always be there

And now your gone
not a thing can i do
i feel so helpless
that cant bring back you

I know your watching
from your place up high
i love you forever
my angel in the sky