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So I gave up.
It was only a matter
Of time before
I would realize
That it was worthless.
I could never
Matter as much
As you matter to me.

I despise your eyes
For being too clear and pure.
But I can't hate you,
No matter how hard I try.
I can't try any more
To be your friend,
It takes too much giving,
No hope for return.

But what does it matter?
You have your better friends,
The ones you understand,
And know you back.
The ones you do things with,
The ones you don't turn down.
Real friends, not me.
I don't make sense.

Just a bit of extra by the side.
What worth am I?
I can't entertain you,
Can't make u laugh,
Can't talk, not interesting enough.
So I'll leave, and go home,
And grieve my loss.
Your gain.

I am disgusted with myself
For losing so fast.
But I have no choice.
I'm too tired.