Wind, Sun and Grass

The wind blows through my hair,
The sun warms my face,
The fresh green grass against my skin,
Feels just as soft as lace,

The twittering of the birds,
Is all that I can hear,
Surrounding me,
Is the calming atmosphere,

This place of thought,
Is my own,
Were my thoughts,
Begin to be shown,

Thoughts of happiness,
And thoughts of pain,
Come back to haunt me,
Again and again,

I have to myself,
The perfect place,
And once again,
My mind does race,

So many feelings,
Are held within,
So many reasons,
And so many sins,

A meaningless tear,
Glides down my cheek,
So upset,
I can barely speak,

So many things,
Keep going on,
I dont know how much longer,
I can stay strong,

What is wrong with me?
I just dont know,
Fake a smile,
And put on a show,

I know what to do,
Deep down inside,
Accept the help,
I so often decline,

But im the girl,
Thats never upset,
So calm,relaxed,
Not known to fret,

Really this girl,
Isn't known at all,
Because she gets up,
After every fall,

But I'll carry on,
And struggle through,
I'll keep helping others,
Thats what I always do,

I tell myself,
The problems will pass,
Like the wind,
Through this grass,

To my normal state,
I do return,
Those thoughts are gone,
I'll never learn,

Such a mess,
It's all my fault,
If only I could talk,
I could sort things out,

Back to my life,
Back to my field,
Try and pretend,
My lifes not real,

The wind blows through my hair,
The sun warms my face,
The fresh green grass against my skin,
Feels just as soft as lace.