That feeling

That very feeling
of being loved
is taken away
getting shoved

pushed into darkness
forced to live depressed
with all this pain stuck inside
I'll never have my beauty's rest

living in hell
with all this pain
there is nothing else
that I can gain

all this sorrow
I can't live life
and I promised
that I don't pick up my knife

so here I sit
in the darkness of the shining moon
just sitting here
hoping I would die soon