Why does life have to be so difficult?
All the drama at school
with people calling you names
even friends says things that hurt.
Then you have to split family
that comes with step family
that you have to deal with.
Then there is work
that messes everything up.
Then as a senior
you have to decide
where to go to college
what are your future plans.
Then you have all the extra things
that does not help out anything.
The crushes, and the relationships.
With that being said
here is my story:
I am a 18 year old senior
at Fairfield Union High School.
I am the girl at school
that people call all kinds of names
My friends at the lunch table
sit there and say things
about me and my boyfriend
that hurts me.
I live with my grandparents
that took me in when i left my mom.
I had my own mother look at me
and tell me that she did not love me
and that i was not her daughter.
I just recently got back in contact with my dad.
He was not in my life for 13 years.
Now he has a family
with three girls
and all the trouble that comes with it.
My grandparents are not the best.
They yell and sometimes i did not even do anything.
I have a job but not my own car.
Which sucks because I can�t do what I want.
I am involved in the band and choir
I love music, it is my life.
And it takes up a lot of my time.
I have a boyfriend that is from Puerto Rico
and my dad is not pleased that he is colored.
I am in the process of joining the army band
and going through that whole process.
For the audition i have to know all my scales
And be good at site reading.
I am a very emotional person.
its hard for me to not express my opinion
when something is not right.
I have lived a sheltered life
and it sucks.
Plus my little 8 year old cousin
has been through treatment for cancer
at 18 months old.
then at 4 years old for him
he had to have a bone marrow transplant
because of it.
I lost my great grandma that i was close to 2 years ago
I lost my grandfather
on my dad's side that i was close to
and only new a year back in January.
I have been hurt way to much in the past
by friends, family and especially guys.
I have tried suicide.
I have tried crying
i have tried it all.
so that is my story.
i am not looking for comfort
i am not looking for friends
i am a strong tough girl
and i can take care of myself.
I just wanted my story to be known
and let other people know
that they are not alone
when it comes to pain of every kind.
