I think...I think I might cry at this point.
If I'm so amazing, then why don't you hear it when i say you deserve love and joy and forgiveness...why.

I want a hug
But don't deserve one

^^ *hugs*

I want repentance
through my blood

^^ the only way to repent is through Christ's blood. you ask for forgiveness and He gives it to you. when you cut, you do the opposite, hon. you cut Christ, you reject is gift to you..

I want love
But am not worthy

^^ i love you.

For these are the words of a bleeding mess you see

^^ i was terrified when i read this line, monique. i don't want you to be a bleeding mess....;ladsldlkadd

This poem is well written though I am certain you have paid a heavy price by carrying the burden of guilt It is time to forgive YOURSELF and realize that God loves you just the way you are and I do too