Are you really that oblivious?
Cant you see that i want more?
This whole situation hurts me
not that you will ever know.
I did agree to be friends with benefits
because i thought it might turn
into something great.
Now I'm starting to think that
it was a huge mistake.
Everyone is saying you are using me
and I'm just not sure.
They say i should get out of this situation
before people give me
a bad reputation.
It could very well be a possibility
that they are right
but i don't want to believe it true.
I still get butterflies when i think of you
even though i shouldn't.
I still like you very much
I have tried to stop
but just cant bring myself to it.
I know we aren't super close friends
considering i haven't known you that long
and that you rejected me
that some time ago
after i tried to please
your burning desires.
That hurt me so bad
you don't even know.
I thought we would just stay at friends
and not have anything more.
That is why i took on this opportunity
when it arose
i was thrilled to know
that it was becoming deeper than
just friends even though
we don't really have that emotional end
like in boyfriend and girlfriend.
You also think I'm still a little needy and obsessive
and maybe even worrisome too.
But i can change that
because i know what to do.
Then what will happen when school is over?
Which is very soon.
I wish i had more time to spend with you.
You will be in college next year
leaving me behind.
Will we still hang out?
I don't know if i could even ask
knowing i should really be holding back.
We will have this confusing relationship still?
I need to know these answers
so i stop feeling so ill.
It does hurt knowing
we have nothing more right now.
Than the emotions that just friends have
and just being each others
pleasure toys.
Even though you said it could turn into more.
I highly doubt that is for sure.
Maybe this isn't exactly right
but i just need you in my life.
I don't want you to go away
so i will keep playing this role
so then you will stay.
I guess we will just have to see what the
future brings.
If it will turn into more
or just stay as it is.
It could possibly
take a turn for the worst
and once summer comes
we will take a different course.
You promised me that this wont hurt our friendship
but i have heard stories that say otherwise.
Maybe we will be different
oh i hope it can survive.
Well the school year is about to end
and we wont see each other everyday
ever again and who knows
how the summer will be
This will truly be the final test of this all.
Will you pursue this relationship?
or just let it fall.
I cant be the one doing all the work
considering that could get on your nerves.
How i hope though
we can continue this even after
that last school bell has rung
its final song.
