Omg! that's horrible! i'm so sorry you lost her. that kind of pain is unimaginable to me! i'm glad you're seeming to get through it ok. i get the feeling you're a strong person who knows how to deal with something like this.
if you need someone to vent to i'm here. i hate saying that though b/c EVERYONE on this site says that and i'm thinking 'i don't know you! i'm not gonna share anything with you' but who knows i've never acually tried it before so maybe it works and i should try it sometime.
again, good job on this one! don't quite writing if it's what you love to do.
~sourpatch