My Teary Eyed Surrender

I can't get up tonight
Not after all I've seen
Thoughts of suicide
Make me feel unclean

I try to look up
I try to see the light inside
But I see no light
Has it truly died?

No, I'm making excuses
This can't be true
You're out there somewhere
Mouthing "I still love you"

Yes that makes me feel better
But then the happiness subsides
Tears fill my humble eyes
Love and depression collides

My heart is overwhelmed now
Love has lost its splendor
I fall to my bloody knees
I call out my teary eyed surrender

You don't seem to hear me
You continue to engulf me in pain
My cries turn to muttered apologies
As I slowly go insane

I shall remain in this place
Where my inner dreams burn
Waiting for your hand
To beckon my return