I wish but I wont

I wish I could show you,
how I feel but I cant.
I wish I could show you,
shes not going to change but I cant.
I wish I could give you my life,
but I wont.
I wish I could wait for you forever,
but I wont.

Im not going to give you my everything,
just so I can get hurt...
Im not going to wait for you to love me back,
just so I can die of old age...
Im not going to listen to you anymore,
just so I dont believe your lies...
Im not going to believe you when you say you care,
because Im tired of hearing it...
Im not going to be able to breathe,
the day you tell me "I Love You" and truly mean it...
because I dont think my heart could take being that happy.