I Smiled...

The girl always wore black, always depressed cause people talked back
Black around her eyes and cuts upon her wrist
all she wanted was a friend, she prayed, slammed the walls with her fist
she couldn't breathe, couldn't see, her vision was foggy and it did not please
she got sick of the shame, feeling the blame, trapped in her own little game
and we think she walked back in the room to try to prove
she was worth so much bloody more than you
she's still here, still she, to still be, the girl she still believes
Head's not high, you can't deny, the way she pulls down her sleeves
The pain's written on her face, the uncried tears and the untold fears
but she sits down closes her eyes, blocks you out and all your lies
trying to keep steady, be ready for what life throws in her eyes
its painful for us to watch her lose it all, feel the fall and end the call
than her to go through it, cause she don't see her quit, the suicide's she'll commit
she looks in the mirror and she knows what we mean
we try to say "baby, you got your whole life, your only fourteen"
gotta hope that we hit the brain, in case she ends her life, but it's all the same
she gets up, grabs the blade, screams about her past and the the tears cascade
she throws the blade in the bin, exhales the pain within; this is where it begins
runs out the room, running free to where she wants to always be
slamming open to door, screams for more and the life inside her soars
The sunlight new to her, the bright she prefers, she's feeling the heat at this time
bare feet ran onto the grass,which she did pass, it looked so lime
staring into the sun awhile, realised she lives in denial. In darkness, there's light worthwhile
and in that moment.... for the very first time.... I smiled

- if you read all the way to the bottom, you are a worthy person!
i know its long, sorry.
yes, this is about me. erm.... yeah, wrote it FOR Amethyst althought it is ABOUT me... :S basically I hope she gets something from this :S ill shhh now... -