I have been with my partner 13 years ,
we've had our share of good and bad.
He says he loves me still ,
yet I am not sure and that is what makes me sad.
I care about him thats for sure ,
but am no longer 'in love' with him its true.
Sounds awful I know but thats how I feel ,
as together there is so much we have been through.
As old fashioned as they are ,
there was a I time I admired his ways.
But now his ways they just bring me down ,
and it feels like all they do is darken my days.
The days when kids were seen and not heard ,
well does he not realise they are history ? and so unfair.
I want my kids to look back and remember with fondness ,
that not only with mum but dad too fun they did share.
Like me the kids now prefer it when he's at work ,
because when he's not here kids are what they can be.
He is only happy when he knows I've been home all day ,
fresh air and friends I need but he won't allow me.
I have come to feel more like a prisoner over the years ,
slowly but surely being suffercated by his love.
As awful as it sounds I wish he were gone ,
as I'm not sure I love him and caring does not seem enough.
