Life is full of what ifs....

Everyone asks what if ? from time to time ,
me I've asked myself it over and over again.
And when I do the answers they don't come ,
so still at times all I feel is pain.

What if I had given my first love another chance ,
would he have changed his ways and still be alive today ?.
What if the father of my first child had tried to love me ,
could we have made it work some how some way ?.

What if instead of security and stability I had waited for love ,
would I be happy now instead of full of regret ?.
What if my partner had left when I told him I loved another ,
would the devastation I caused him be easy to forget ?.

What if that other I did fall for mean all that he said ,
could it have worked if we had got together ?.
Life is full of what if's and I have so many ,
but the answers to them remain unknown forever.