A maze in the mind

Why have I left myself in such a situation,
it's time like these that all is compared and weighed,
silence becomes pain that grows with every second,
my frustration slowly feeds off my mentality and sanity.

Directions I dare not look for the sake of health,
my ears I would cut off to be in peace,
how does one come such an awful but joyful road?
how is it possible to feel both at once?

I become more irritable as time passes on,
the disturbance of uncertainty remains,
the comfort of knowledge does not exist,
thoughts appear to be unclear and overcrowding.

Humour presents itself in the most oddest of ways,
results depend on the perception of the image,
my anger is defused by simple conversation and kindness,
my day is brightened by the same darkness,
such feelings are temporary as I am female.