Shes anorexic and never coming back

She was my best friend for a long time....
She was always thin, since kinder...
VCE and it was discovered...
Anorexic been fighting it for years....

Should have seen it when her dad died
That she blamed herself... Her mum didn't help.
She was never happy with herself...

What if we hadn't fought and lost each other?
What if i hadn't walked away from her destroying me?
What if i had stayed her best friend?
What if i hadn't ignored her?

She wouldn't be anorexic
She'd be the girl i used to know
She'd have been different now...
not sick and barely alive today...
but happy and healthy...

I blame myself for walking away
For allowing her to hurt me...
For allowing myself to give up in pain...
It's my fault nothings changed...

When we were best friends i could've changed it
Stopped the events...
the evil dead in its tracks.

I'm sorry you have to lie to me...
Wish you could still trust me...
tell me the truth...
I still care about you...
We've been through so much...
I still don't want to lose you

I fear its too late for you to come back from this...
I wish i had stood by you
I wish i had changed everything.

*true story, friend i grew up with is still anorexic, and i didn't see it when we were 6 and i was the only person there for her*