I am a pro at pretending, i put on a perfect disguise
but i have become so tired of all the acts and the lies
while you think i stand tall and hold my head up high
im really just trying to ignore my thoughts, im trying so hard not to cry
all my emotions are looking me in the eyes at last
here i am, standing face to face with my past
all my life iv been running from someone but i never knew who
but now i realize iv been running from myself wanting to get away from my own truth
nobody knows how much iv always blamed myself
and now im in too deep, noone can save me from this hell
its not that i dont want help, its just that im broken too bad
iv given up on everything, iv stopped caring about this pothetic life i have
its like im always mad, i just can not be happy
all of a sudden i have lost myself, all of a sudden i dont know me
eyes stare right through me pretending to understand
but i dont even know myself so you couldnt possibly know who i am
you may think you know me but youv got it all wrong
the person you thought you knew was my mask all along
i wear the mask cause i told myself i wouldnt cry, i wouldnt let my past get the best of me
but as time slips by, my mind fills with memories
i sit alone by myself as i wonder why im here
who have i become, and what exactly do i fear
im trying to be there for everybody and keep myself sane
its so hard to keep up with eveyone and all their emotional games
i want so bad to give up but for some reason i cant let go
i wish someone could understand, but they may never know
iv found that you cant feel the heat untill youv gotten burned
thats why noone understands my lifes flames, but eventually they will learn
