What should I do cause of u?(daddy)

What should i do?
you ruined my life to

you tell me i ruined yours
but i want to open doors
the only bad thing is..
i don't know were it goes

you've beat me
gave me treats
y cant u just let me be?
cause i wont think bout any deaths

you say u wish u never had me
well I'm sorry u feel this way
but there's something that u got to see
that u will always stay

but me, I wont, I cant live no more
my heart hurts and its so sore
I'll leave

you've lived 42 years
I'll live 13
but u don't care what that means

I wanna die
I always cry
should i hide
cause my life is about to slide
should i think of the razor blade
that will help me go away and fade
or should i just runaway
those are the things i think bout everyday

~ hi i'm 13 and it would mean a lot for u to comment this poem~