What have I done?

Softly come the tears,
and I don't let go.
quietly come my fears,
that i told myself not to show.
What have I done?
this quiet obsession takes hold.
This has just begun.
the truth starts to unfold.
I can't hide the truth much longer.
I intentionally hurt someone.
why can't i be stronger?
why can't this be done?
what have I done?
the lies dig me into a hole.
what have i done?
have I lost my heart and soul?
There is no end to this pain i have wrought.
and I let him in without even a thought.
Why was I so blind?
love is a word said in doubt.
what did he expect to find?
what love is all about?
Down a deep hole i continue to fall
i wonder if anyone is there to catch me at all.
I am scared to know what is true.
then i might actually hurt you.
oh, what have i done?
you never trusted me
what have I done?
that much i could see.
I was someone else to you.
someone i can never be.
nothing anymore is true
please let me be free.
oh what have I done?
but this has just begun.