Crying by Candle Light

I sit in my room,
And feel so lonely.
I know what will happen soon,
And I wish "if only".

If only you knew,
If only I could say.
If the wind blew,
I'd get blown away.

Sometimes I want to leave,
So I retreat to my chamber.
And still you wouldn't believe,
The things I can remember.

All alone I make a fire,
And wish it'd burn me down.
As the flames grow higher,
I make no sound.

If I cry, you'll wonder why.
So I put on my brave face.
And try to embrace,
Your love with a sigh.

I don't want your tears to shed,
Or you to get hurt.
I'd much rather me be bled,
And very badly burnt.