Dismal Pain

I fell like yelling and screaming,
But it would only be in vain,
It wouldn't fill my hollow spaces,
Or relieve my dismal pain.

It's as if my world is crumbling,
Collapsing before my very eyes,
All the things I held close to my heart,
Were just petty, tactless lies.

What happened to the wondrous life,
I experienced as a child?
Those aches and pains and issues,
Now seem so relatively mild.

I've heard it doesn't get much better,
What if it never goes away?
It's like demons, parasites,
What if my heart is where they'll stay?

I find it slightly daunting,
And it prickles at my nerves,
For unlike they tend to say,
One doesn't always get what one deserves.

Is that really what's in store for me?
Somewhere I must've gone quite wrong,
Everyone is given a little sting,
But why must mine last so long?

I've tried so hard to stop it,
Fix it, or make it disappear,
But despite my hardest effort,
It always finds its way back here.

I feel like yelling and screaming,
But it would only be in vain,
It wouldn't fill my hollow spaces,
Or take away my dismal pain.